IF a journey to health and well-being

 Monday 83.7kgs It doesn't take a genius to work out that I weighed this morning!  I am going through a bit of a crisis in the last 3 days and so I need to weigh to keep and eye on things.  83.7kgs is ok considering what happened yesterday. On Saturday I was fasting all day and in the afternoon we went out for a walk in the woods and got caught in a storm and got soaked.  Also I got stung on the right elbow by a horse fly.  It was really painful and as the night wore on it became more and more swollen and inflamed and hot and painful.  I didn't sleep well and when I woke up on Sunday morning it was in a right mess.  I tried icing it but that didn't really work.  In the end I took an anti-histamine tablet, even though I know they have a very negative effect on me, making me feel sleepy and horrible.  I was supposed to break my fast at 2pm but at 1pm I felt dreadful.  I was shaky, mushy headed, very sleepy and felt really, really unwell....

 Sunday 83kgs Ok when I stood on the scale this morning I was devastated to see that I was 83.  For some reason I thought I was going to be in the high 82's.  Then I have just looked back at yesterdays blog and I wrote that I expected to be 83 this morning so I am spot on.  Of course the question of 'Should I weigh?' is answered in this first paragraph.  I don't want to, but I can't stand not knowing how I am doing. Today is an eating day and I am thinking that I will have my usual lunch of eggs and bacon and then a steak for dinner with veg.  For Mike I was going to cook this kind of cauliflower cheese pasta dish that Jamie Oliver did.  I could have the Cauliflower cheese without the pasta. We were going to go out on the tandem today but Mike wants to go out on his bike and I got bitten by a horse fly yesterday and my arm is swollen from halfway up my forearm to halfway up my bicep and so painful that I don't want to cycle.  I have actually taken...

 Saturday 83.7kgs As you can see I did weigh this morning.  It's such a habit.  I wish now I hadn't because obviously I guessed yesterday that today I would be up to 83.5.  I know it's only 200gms but on the square foot of misery it can be a negative feeling.  I wonder too if the alcohol (one gin) is the reason?  I will never know but I must bear it in mind.  So today the plan is to fast until tomorrow.  I have just done my pilates and plan on a long walk this afternoon with Lilly.  I have done dinner for Mike so that is all good.   So how do I think this is going to go if I fast today?  Are my expectations unrealistic?  Yup I think so.  Especially when I have been reading that intially doing rolling 42's that the weight loss is dramatic when you first start and then it slows down to a crawl.  Well I have to say after my first two 42's the weight loss was dramatic at 2kgs in 5 days.  Am I prepared to do roll...

 Friday 82.9kgs I did it!  I managed to fast until this morning and so far have done about 37 hours.  I still have a way to go to get to 42 and I have to admit I do feel a bit shaky.  I am madly eating salt and drinking coffee and water.  I am going to do the 42 hours.  Actually I don't mind the hunger but I do mind when I get the swimmy head etc.  I had a terrible nights sleep but actually I think that is my fault as I had read on the FB groups that sometimes it's hard to sleep on an extended fast.  I did get some sleep although my shoulder was hurting.   The square foot of misery was kind this morning and I weighed in at 82.9 which is bloody amazing.  I know that when I start to eat today it will shoot up but I am hoping to keep that to under 84.  If I can keep in the 83's then I will be well happy.  I am seriously wondering about fasting tomorrow as well.  I would like to ease up over the weekend but I know how qui...

 Thursday 84.4kgs Let's just get yesterday out of the way.  So it was an up day and I planned to do 42 hours but in the end I got to 41 and called it a day.  I was hungry and Mike was eating and I was irritable and hangry.  I cannot bear to hear him eating his lunch even if I am not fasting because every bloody day he has a huge mound of crisps which he crunches his way through.  OMG I just want to run around screaming when he is eating.  So I made myself some lunch of bacon and mackerel.  It was nice and filling.  For dinner we had steak and I had some sweet potato fries and salad.  The problem is that in between lunch and dinner I ate a huge handful of sultanas and grilled almonds.  Once I started I couldn't stop.  Same old, same old.  So onwards and upwards. I guessed yesterday pretty accurately that today I would weigh 84.4 and I was spot on.  Today I plan to fast until tomorrow.  I can do it and as the day goes o...

 Wednesday 83.9kgs I did it!  I managed to fast until now and am so far 40.5 hours and planning to go until 2pm which will be 42 hours.  My plan after that is to eat a lunch of sardines and egg and salad and then for dinner tonight I will have a steak and salad and maybe some couscous or something like that.  I am obviously very pleased with myself and although this morning has been a bit of a struggle because I do feel hungry I am coping.   So what to do from here?  Should I do another 42 hour fast from tonight?  Should I do 2mad tomorrow and then do a 42 hour fast on Friday?  I'm not sure what to do.  Obviously I want quick results but I also do not want to be stressed.  I feel quite stressed right now but that is nothing to do with food. The numbers on the foot square made me feel good because I am way down on yesterday but then obviously after I eat today they are going to go back up again.  I think that tomorrow I will be ...

 Tuesday 85.1kgs My weight is still going up and therefore I need to rethink my food choices.  Also, yesterday I felt really unwell all day.  I felt mushy headed, shaky and my eyes were unfocussed all day.  I was irritable, felt hungry and hangry.  I was snapping at Mike all day and felt very tearful when Ben rang to say he wasn't coming over.  I feel hurt because of that.  I have no rights as a parent but it would love to spend some time with him.  Hey ho, suck it up sister.   Yesterday I took my blood sugars all day.  In the morning when fasted and just feeling crappy I took it and it was 5.  Then I took it before my dinner in the evening when I had eaten lunch and was hungry again about 7.15pm and it was 5.3.  I took it an hour after eating and I felt fine but tired and it was 5.7.  So not problems with my blood sugar at all looking at those numbers.  I was very, very tired and in fact had a short sleep at abo...