The square foot of temporary joy! With late update 82.9kgs

 Friday 82.9kgs

I did it!  I managed to fast until this morning and so far have done about 37 hours.  I still have a way to go to get to 42 and I have to admit I do feel a bit shaky.  I am madly eating salt and drinking coffee and water.  I am going to do the 42 hours.  Actually I don't mind the hunger but I do mind when I get the swimmy head etc.  I had a terrible nights sleep but actually I think that is my fault as I had read on the FB groups that sometimes it's hard to sleep on an extended fast.  I did get some sleep although my shoulder was hurting.  
The square foot of misery was kind this morning and I weighed in at 82.9 which is bloody amazing.  I know that when I start to eat today it will shoot up but I am hoping to keep that to under 84.  If I can keep in the 83's then I will be well happy.  I am seriously wondering about fasting tomorrow as well.  I would like to ease up over the weekend but I know how quickly I put it all back on again.  I will be so pissed off to go back up above 84.  Let's see how it goes today.   There is an alternative in that I could fast again today and then eat over the weekend.  I'm going to see how it feels later.  I know I can do it but I don't want to feel miserable.

The plan today is to fast for as long as possible.  If I eat then I will have roasted veg I think.  I fancy that.  I have plenty of low carb food if I decide to do 2MAD and if I do OMAD then I will eat whatever I want.  I may not eat at all and Fast until Saturday.  

I need to talk to Mike about Extended Fasting or EF as yesterday for the first time when he realised I wasn't eating he said that what I was doing was unhealthy.  I get that he thinks that and if someone I knew  had told me in January that they were doing EF I would have been worried and sceptical about it.  I have wanted this weight loss all my life. I have dieted in some form or other all my life.  I have spent thousands and thousands on weight loss stuff, gyms, surgery and still I am fat.  This seems like the answer to all my prayers.  It is not that hard and is basically a mindset.  I am in the groove and I am achieving all my goals and it is not taking that long.  I have now lost 13 kgs from my very heaviest of 96kgs.  I have lost 2 stone since February and 22lbs or 10kgs since the 10th April when I started IF.  I think 10 kgs in 15 weeks is amazing. 

I need to start thinking and planning when Becky and Ollie are here.  That is 2 weeks of pressure and I do not want them to be the cause of me falling off the wagon.  I need to speak to Mike about that too.  I don't want my diet to be the subject of their input thank you.  IF or EF?   I will make my plans closer to the time.  I need to have strategies for getting out of the way when they are eating.  It will be fine.

Today I am so grateful for

This Blog which is really helping me to reflect and tune in my thoughts.  It keeps me accountable to myself as no one else reads it.  It makes me honest.

My very positive mental attitude.  I am doing so well.  I am so proud of myself.  I am amazing.

Just life.  My life is so good.  I know I am on a rollercoaster of emotions at times and I fluctuate from deeply depressed to fantastically happy, all within the space of 24 hours, but mostly life is good.  Life is very, very good.

LATE UPDATE:
It's now 9pm and it's been quite a quiet day really.  I fasted for 42 hours which was amazing but at the end I was starting to feel really hungry.  I am well happy with that.  For lunch I had Bacon and eggs and mushrooms which was yummy.  It did give me an upset tummy but that passed.  Later on I was really, really tired and could easily have fallen asleep.  Dinner was a bit of a disaster because I prepared this lovely chicken and chick pea tagine but forgot to switch the Ramoska on.  Duhhh!!  So I went out to do the couscous to find a raw dinner.  I was too tired to start messing  about so in the end we had fish fingers and baked beans with bread and butter.  Yes I did eat bread and butter but I really wanted it.  So now I have closed my window and off we go again.  I think that tomorrow morning I will be at least 83.5kgs.  I really intend to do another 40 hour fast and then on Sunday eat freely, whatever I want.
My plan then is to do Monday, Wednesday and Friday fasting and then eat at the weekend.  I am actually wondering if I can go without weighing until Monday.  I am not sure I can.  
Let's think this through. 
Saturday fasting 83.5 in the morning.  83.3 by bed time after fasting and a bike ride.
Sunday eating and 82.7 in the morning.  
Monday fasting and 83.4 in the morning
Tuesday 82.6.
I might weigh tonight when I go to bed to try and see how it's looking and then decide in the morning if I will weigh or not.  It's that square foot of misery thing.
Please god let me sleep well tonight.

 

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