Keep calm and carry on. 83kgs

 Sunday 83kgs

Ok when I stood on the scale this morning I was devastated to see that I was 83.  For some reason I thought I was going to be in the high 82's.  Then I have just looked back at yesterdays blog and I wrote that I expected to be 83 this morning so I am spot on.  Of course the question of 'Should I weigh?' is answered in this first paragraph.  I don't want to, but I can't stand not knowing how I am doing.

Today is an eating day and I am thinking that I will have my usual lunch of eggs and bacon and then a steak for dinner with veg.  For Mike I was going to cook this kind of cauliflower cheese pasta dish that Jamie Oliver did.  I could have the Cauliflower cheese without the pasta.

We were going to go out on the tandem today but Mike wants to go out on his bike and I got bitten by a horse fly yesterday and my arm is swollen from halfway up my forearm to halfway up my bicep and so painful that I don't want to cycle.  I have actually taken an anti histamine as it is red hot and so painful.  I am hoping it doesn't make me drowsy as Anti-histamines always have a terrible effect on me.  The plan today is spinning, maybe cooking and I might take the dog out for a walk whilst Mike is out.  I enjoy the walking and it keeps my mind occupied.  Maybe I could get another 10k in today.  I am soooo tempted to try a little bit of jogging.  Maybe that's a step too far but I would like to try the downhills.  I used to love it so much when I did it 10 or so years ago.  We then plan to go out for the tandem ride tomorrow.  I am hoping we do a good 60+ kms and stay out for ages.  Tomorrow is a fasting day and I want to be busy.

My 42 hours is up at 1.45pm, so I need to man up and carry on.  I can do this.  I am well into autophagy now.  

This weighing business is becoming a bit of a thing.  If I don't weigh I will not know if what I am doing is working.  Seriously even when the scales have been up, the general trend has been down and my clothes are getting looser and looser even when the scales have stayed generally the same for a week. I don't need the scales to tell me.  If I weigh I risk that daily 'Dice with my mental well-being' of good or bad news.  
Could I say here and now that I will not weigh until Friday night?

Today 83
Monday ADF am 83.5 pm 83     Or with a bit of optimism am 83.5 pm 82.8 
Tuesday 82.7  or 82.5
Wednesday ADF am 83.1 pm 82.7  or 82.8 am 82.3 pm
Thursday 82.5  or 82
Friday ADF am 82.8 pm 82.4 or 82. 4 am and 81.9 pm.

Gosh that is a lot of fasting to lose a bloody pound!  And that is not eating normally on my up days but also eating time restricted and eating no carb.  
But what if I weighed on Friday night and I was 82 or even in the 81's?  OMG that would be so amazing.
All this angst when really I could just stand on the scales twice a day and actually know.  I think we all know what I am going to do!

I've been talking to some friends about my pig thing and what to call it.  Susan suggested Avarus which is Latin for greedy.  Like the root of avaricious I reckon.  Chris suggested visualising Jabba the Hut.  It would be something like that.  I must read the rest of the book and see how to put it into practice.  The Avarus only comes out on eating days obviously and is never a problem on ADF days.  I think I have it pretty well under control on fasting days.  
How about this?  I hate monkeys and I could imagine this horrible creature getting in the trough.

I'll read the book more and then decide.

I'll try and update later.  I have to concentrate on the in between meals time.  Eat lunch and then nothing else till dinner.

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