IF a journey to health and well-being

 Well who knew.  This feels so slow and so tough.  It's tough because of the way it plays with my head. I keep thinking that I am not losing weight and then the next thing I look back and I have lost another kilo. Mike is getting a bit anxious now that I don't lose too much weight!! Imagine?  We talked this morning about it and I have said I will aim for 80 kgs.  At the moment this feels infinitely do-able.  If you had asked me a couple of weeks ago I would have been all doom and gloom. For some reason this week I am coping so much better and am not feeling hungry.  I wonder if I got the dose wrong last week?  Because I was mixing up the two different pens and using the syringe to get the last bit out of the old one, maybe I did too much?  Anyway whatever it was it worked.  I have been eating very small portions and not feeling hungry and not craving things.  The other day I was in a really shitty space and had to go down to the Spa...

 Hello world. I get so despondent in between times and then feel mehhh!  I then don't do this blog and I really should.  I suppose there is a part of me that is thinking that it is not working, but it is!!  It's slow and sure but it is reducing.   The problem is that I weigh myself every day.  I know I probably shouldn't but equally I do because I have always said ' If I am weighing I am dieting'  When I don't weigh myself daily I know I am not motivated to diet.   The problem is that if you weigh every day the scales go up and down.  One day last week I weighed and I was 86.2kgs.  Imagine if I had kept losing after that weigh in.  Today I would have been down in the 85's.  But due to the square foot of misery, the next day I was up in the high 87's.  Then a few days go by and once again I am down in the 86's.  It's hard but I am starting to understand my body. When I started this 7 weeks ago I was full of f...

 It's not exactly going fast.  I find it so disheartening when I read the massive losses people are having on the lower dose and on this dose but in only a couple of weeks.  It is what it is.  I am not exercising but I am so fucking tired all the time. I don't seem to have the energy for exercise.  I am trying to be careful about calorie intake and also protein but maybe I am not as careful as I could be.  I am not starving and I am trying to make this a way of eating that is sustainable.  I don't want to be not eating bread for the rest of my life.  If I want a bit of bread then I can have it after of course considering how the day is going. I weighed myself 2 days ago and I was 87.2kgs.  OMG I wanted to cry.  Sadly it didn't last as you can see from the numbers at the top.  I do reckon that alcohol is something which affects my weight loss.  I have not drunk wine and only had spirits with water.  Either vodka or spiced r...

 Gosh this is so tough.  I read all these people who are losing shed loads of weight and have no food noise and have to force themselves to eat.  If only! I have learned a saying whilst on the FB grou0s and that is 'Comparison is the theif of joy'.  This is so true.  I'll tell you something else that is the their of joy...l the bloody scales.  There is nothing more guaranteed to make you feel like crying than that square foot of glass.  But hey ho it is what it is. So today is the first of the 5mg dose.  I have to admit I am scared and really i had planned to take it yesterday but kept putting it off.  This morning I knew I had to do it and so I did the full 5ml into my belly.  I had been toying with the idea of doing a 3/4 dose but I am paying all this money to lose weight and it needs to bloody happen, otherwise it's just a waste of time and money.  There is still some liquid in the 2.5ml pen and I feel passed off that I might hav...

 This has been a mental challenge as much as anything else.  I know that in the first month you should manage your expectations and be realistic on how much if any weight you will lose, but hey ho we all expect a miracle don't we? So last week-end I was thinking it's not working because I was not losing any weight. I was looking forward to going up à dose so that I could get à move on.  Then as the week went by I suddenly realised I was making healthier choices.  It wasn't perfect but more often than not they were good choices.  I don't really think that I lost anything in week 3 but I do believe that I was making healthier choices. Exercise has been a bit of a no no.  I'm feeling quite tired.  I'm not sure if it is because of the meds or I'm just tired but I didn't feel like walking and my bike is missing a wheel.😒 Also last week I didn't take the shot until Sunday because of the trip back from the UK.  I decided to  move it all forward a d...

 Week 2 Last week was quite surprising as I really had no side effects but also didn't have any positive effects like food noise reducing.   Well I don't think I did.   I did eat more healthily though.  I ate what I wanted and had bread and chocolate but not in excess and I think am thinking about food differently.   A couple of times I have left food on my plate, and a couple of times I have thrown food away where normally I would have forced myself to finish whatever was on my plate and I would definitely have put it in the fridge for later.  The scales have gone down but as they are mechanical scales it's hard to say exactly how much.  Today I took a photo of the scales so that I can compare. I think I have lost 2lbs but that is fine because at no time was I feeling like I was on a diet or deprived.