Here we are again.- 91.2kgs 14 st 5lb

 So it's been a long time since I spoke to you.  A lot has happened but the most telling thing is that I am seriously fat again.  There is so much to say and I'm not sure it serves any purpose to go over it all.  I ate too much is the bottom line.  No fasting, no carnivore, too much of everything.

So here we are back at square 1.  Back at 91.2kgs and feeling so bad.  Mentally I am on the floor.  Physically I feel so horrible.  All my clothes are tight and many now don't fit.  We have just come back from Spain where David insisted on photographing me at every bloody opportunity and most of those were when I was eating.

So desperate times call for desperate measures.  I have bought myself a months dose of Mounjaro and at 8.15am today I took my first dose.  I haven't told Mike what I am doing because it is not cheap.  I paid £185 from Asda.  

When I get back to France (I am at mum and dads at the moment for dad's birthday) I will go to the doctors and ask him if he will prescribe it but honestly I don't think he will.

I am quite anxious because of the side effects but I have to try.

I weighed on mum's scales and am 14st 5lbs or 91 kgs on them this morning.  I am a bit of a scale monster so I want to be able to check.  I will try and ignore the scales for as long as possible.  That might just be till tomorrow morning knowing me.

I'll come back later and update the blog with how I feel.  Hopefully I'll have no side effects.

Please god let this work.

UPDATE:  it's bedtime and I think i feel ok.  I have been good with eating but I don't know if that's part of trying harder or the meds.

My measurements were tough to see.  Tomorrow is another day so please god it's a good one.

Measurements

Neck.    14.5.  37 cms

Chest.    47.    119

Under bust 40.  101.5

Waist     42.5.  108

Hips    46.    117

Belly   47.    119.5

Thigh L     24.   61

Thigh R.   24.5.  63









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