Cooler day. 84.6kgs

 Friday 84.6kgs

84.6 is good.  It's only 100g but it's much better than 100g up!

Yesterday was not a bad day.  I drank bone broth and just ate in the evening. I had a steak and some green beans and a piece of melon and a few squares (for few read too many) of chocolate.  So today I am going to eat 2 meals.  Late lunch and dinner.  I will probably have sardines and eggs for lunch and for dinner it is steak.  I probably wont have anything with the steak except maybe some salad.

I was really not that hungry at dinner time last night.  I have this mental block where if there is food in the fridge that might spoil and maybe I had half a plan that if I was going to eat I would eat whatever that thing is in the fridge then I have to eat it.  Even if I was thinking I could do a ADF I would have a plan that if I was desperate then I would eat ................. (insert food of choice).  So by the time I get to dinner time when I should just carry on through I will eat whatever the emergency food is, just in case.

I am scared to plan a 42 hour fast I think.  I am scared in case I get hungry.  What will I eat?  Of course there is absolutely bugger all to eat in this house! ......NOT!  There is always emergency food and I will always have tinned fish and eggs so that is just not true.

My plan today is to eat 2 meals that are very high protein and then tomorrow to do a 36+ hour fast.  There is absolutely no reason at all that I cannot do that.  I have all the tools.  I will drink the water, eat the salt.  I will drink the bone broth of which I have loads.  I can do that.

I will not weigh myself tomorrow morning...  I will try not to weigh myself tomorrow morning.  
On Sunday I will eat 2 meals again both high protein and see where that takes us.

I honestly think that if I can get my head around the ADF then it really would suit me down to the ground.  I would lose weight a lot faster and more importantly, a lot more consistently.  Let's see how tomorrow goes and then make a plan for next week.   Monday, Wednesday. Friday maybe?  It actually is fear that is holding me back.  I am scared of being hungry.  I need to explore this.  I won't die from being hungry.  I will give myself another tool that will allow all my dreams to come true. My dream since I was a teenager is to be slimmer than I am at the time I am wanting it.  I have been through it all including going on my own to a foreign country to have gastric surgery.  WTF and then I am scared of being hungry????????  For just a few hours??????????  No seriously, I can be hungry and it is going to serve me very well.
So today is the set up day for tomorrow.  Today I will set my body up with protein and to get into fuelling my body from fat.  Tomorrow I won't be hungry, I will be burning fat.

Today I am grateful for

Making mayonnaise for the first time successfully.  

Making some successful bone broth with a second use of beef bones.

Not killing (strangling) anyone!


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