Day 4 AF 87.

 Friday 87kgs

So things are going better and the scales are moving.  Today I managed to fast until about 5pm and then had chicken and burger for dinner with some cream cheese.  I had a greek yoghurt after with a teaspoon of sugar.

I have been very good and not had a drink at all.  I was so tempted and had flashes of real craving.  I nibbled some brazil nuts and then at the real tempting time whilst I was getting dinner I had a big glass of fizzy water.  Once I had finished my dinner that craving went and I felt fine.  I think the not drinking is harder or at least as hard as not eating the things I want to eat.  I would love to feel that I have given up drinking but that is a hard thing to think.  I have Inge et al coming to lunch on Wednesday and will offer a bottle of Prosecco.  I am not sure that I will be able to say no to it.  My problem is that it is a bit like dieting.  If I'm not weighing myself I am not dieting.  I am either eating carbs or I'm not, I'm either carnivore or not.  I am either drinking or I am not.  I am going to have to learn this whole other way of maybe only drinking in company and not because it is my habit to drink when I am getting dinner or when I am stressed.  
I will take it a day at a time and today is day 4 and all is well.

Tomorrow is a bit of a blank day so I think I will see how long I can fast for by keeping myself busy.  I have some broth in the fridge which I can drink.  I will plan to eat late evening and just eat protein although I don't know what as I am planning something with Pasta for Mike.  I have plenty in the freezer.  

3kgs to go to get to 85.  I can do that if I stick with the plan.  When I get to the UK it is my plan to go to Aldi and buy at least 10 steaks and fish, probably salmon.  I can then have no excuse to go off piste apart from Christmas day.  Wouldn't it be amazing if I could not have a drink until Christmas day?  If I lasted that long then I think I would not drink on Christmas day.  But that is a long way ahead and I have been here before.

Trust yourself Gail.  You can do this.

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