Visitors and a rest. Time out. No weighing.

 Sunday not weighing.

So life has been a bit stressful for me the last few days and yesterday it was an all out meltdown.  I had the worst migraine I have ever had.  Not a lot of headache but severe confusion, disturbed vision, generally feeling unwell and tired.  I slept all afternoon.  I'm not actually sure which was the cause and effect.  It was probably the food that I ate.  I started off by eating a piece of home made bread for breakfast.  I never eat breakfast but for some reason, whether it was the comfort I needed or what I do not know but I do know that I just had to eat that lovely piece of a home made semi complet bread.  It was really nice but within a very short time I did not feel very well.  I started to get disturbed vision and then I just couldn't think properly.  I was reading and the words just didn't make sense.  It was all very odd.  The worst part was that for the rest of the day except when I was in bed asleep I couldn't stop eating.  I ate and ate all day.  Mostly bread or carb things.  They didn't make me feel better but they gave me comfort.  

Anyway that is all over today and of course I have not weighed myself.  It would be too much to bear.  I still feel like I want to eat today but I am going to try and delay eating for a bit longer.  I have some beef and bits and pieces in the fridge I can eat which will not involve carbs I hope.  

I have determined in this blog a few days ago that I would try and stay below 85 kgs if possible by the time we get from our holiday away with the family and so that is exactly what I will do.  Once they have all gone and we are back in our little world of normality I can go back to where I was.  

So for now I am signing off and not worrying or thinking about diet.  I will fast when I can and eat if I need to and just enjoy my life.

Today I am grateful for

Feeling better today

Free choices and free will

Not sweating the small stuff.

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