No comment.... 83.9kgs

 Friday 83.9kgs

Not much to say today.  It's a process and it's NOT YET working!  But it might.  I kinda blew it last night.  I did everything I said I would right up until I was preparing dinner.  I had been out to the doctors and then came back and Mike had decided to revarnish the work tops and so I was not allowed to go anywhere near the one on the sink/cooker side because they were wet.  I lost it.  I was so flippin' angry and I mean angry.  What on earth was he thinking of doing it at 5pm?  He knew I was cooking something different for dinner.  Well I thought he knew I was cooking dinner because after all I cook every night!  I really was cross and let him know it and then went on a binge!!  I mean WTF?  How can a varnished worktop make me binge?  I ate a load of those little cheese biscuits and had a large gin and then another smaller one.  Actually far too much gin.  It did make me feel better and not so cross but seriously, it was not a good idea.  Anyway I ate my lovely dinner which was prepared in an area the size of a postage stamp.  Sadly for me I felt like crap from over eating and over drinking.  I didn't sleep well at all.  The bingeing book isn't working....😁 The thing is that when I feel like that the last thing I am thinking about is Jabba the Hut.  

Anyway the plan today is to carry on carefully with my plan.  Nothing until I have done 18 hours and then TW if necessary until 20 hours.  I did that bit quite well yesterday right up until 21 hours.  Dinner tonight is veggie lasagne as per Jamie.  

Today I am grateful for 

Being alive.  Blood pumping, heart beating.



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