Time to move forward and get a grip. 84.7kgs

 Sunday 84.7kgs

Today is another day.  I don't want to dwell on yesterday as mentally it was a bad day.  As far as eating is concerned it was not a total disaster.  I stuck to keto and although I probably ate too much in quantity I mainly stuck to low carb.  I did have a drink.  That is a work in progress.  

As the title says it is the time to move forward now.  I've got this.  It is hard but as I have shown in this blog all along I am doing it.  

It's our wedding anniversary today.  19 years and there have been ups and downs but I wouldn't want to live my life without him.  He knows what makes me tick most of the time.
The plan for today is to go out for a ride on the tandem and then dinner tonight.  It is a special occasion so I MIGHT open a bottle of bubbles but we shall see.  

I am feeling hungry right now which is a bugger but I am going to keep up the salt, coffee, water and brine and use all my toolbox to keep fasting.    

I really have got this in hand.  I can do it.  I can get back into the 83's.  Imagine the feelings of being 83!  I have just over 2 weeks til Becky comes so I can do it.  I probably won't be 83 dead on but I will be in the 83's which is fantastic.
So onwards and forwards and let's get this thing back under control.  I am putting a picture in my head of me at 80kgs.  Me fit and healthy and looking even more amazing than I do now.  Come on Universe, do your thing.  I am asking you to get me to the place I want to be.  I am manifesting this new me.

Today I am grateful for

My wonderful husband who loves me unconditionally and totally.  I don't think anyone in the world could be as loved as I am.  

The person who I have become.  I am proud of her and I love her very much.  She makes me happy.

My life and my lifestyle.  Who could want for more?

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