This is Fridays post I forgot to upload so it's out of sequence. 86kgs

Friday 86 kgs

I am having to type this offline as we are on the ferry with no wifi.  This is a bit of a pain because I can't look back at yesterdays which seems like days ago!  

Yesterday was a loooong day.  We left home at 10.30am and except for 2 short 20 minute stops we drove almost continuously until about 8pm.  I was exhausted and in a really, really bad space.  I was irritable and growling.  I was so pissed off. I was hungry too.  I did end my fast at about 2pm and ate some of the omelette I had prepared.  I was hungry and bloody bored too.  It's not much fun in the passenger seat and I was going to bring some spinning and didn't in the end so |I read a bit of my bingeing book and listen to a Podcast but generally I was bored.  I took lots of salt and also drank lots of water but it didn't seem to work.  However, when I did eat I only ate Fat Fast.

By the time we got to Ouistraham I was really chewing my arm off and I am afraid that although I was good about what I ate I polished off 3 vodkas.  I felt much better and calmer when I had and I took the dog out for a nice walk and felt very mellow.  Sadly it came back on me because I didn't sleep a bloody wink.  I woke several times because I was too hot and also I was thirsty.  The too hot thing is definately a Liver issue.  This is Liver as in Chinese Medicine.  My liver was working hard processing the alcohol and so created heat.  I was up and down to the loo and eventually looked at the clock at 4.30am!  I never went back to sleep.  I was listening the whole time for people stealing Mike's bike.  I got up at 6am and took Lilly for a walk along the beach which was really nice in the early morning freshness.  

Yesterday I listened to a Podcast with Stephen Bartlett and man whose name I can't remember about 3 things to improve your health.  

1.  Grounding in the morning.  Step outside in bare feet onto the earth/grass and ground yourself.

2. Breathing.  He described taking 30 big breaths in, filling your lungs from bottom to top.  On the last breath out hold it for as long as you can.  When you can no longer hold it then breath in and then hold that breath for as long as possible.  Then restart the 30 breaths in and out.  He recommends starting with 5 breaths and building up.  This is part of the Wim Hoff method and I might look into that.

3.  Get out in the light.  He suggests the best time is the hour after dawn before the sun come up.  That might be difficult for me but I will research this more.  

He had other suggestions and the one that caught my eye was he suggested taking Vitamin D3 and Vitamin K.  I am definately going to do this as I had a problem before with Potassium and I have had low Vit D in the past.  I have noticed that my heart Arrhythmia is getting a bit more frequent and on Wednesday it was really bad all day.  I have noticed that my heart rate is really slow at the moment and is down sometimes to 46 and often around 50 bpm.  I took my BP the other day and the machine picked up the Arrhythmia so I know it is not my imagination.

So I am getting back to the 85's which is really where I want to be and I absolutely do not want to come back from the UK and have gone up again.  I need to be shit hot on this and not break my fast in a stupid way.  I am happy to do 16-18 hours but I must be very careful with the carbs.  My first job tomorrow is to go to Aldi and get some steaks and bacon.  I am going to ask Mum to cook her Belly Pork because that will be fab for me.

Today my plan is to fast until we get off the ferry at 3pm French time.  I would like to go longer but if I don't then no problem.  I have plenty of Olive brine with me and intend to drink that to keep me going.  Tonight we are eating fish and chips and I intend not to eat any chips.  I will have the fish though.

Alcohol....  I don't know where I am going with the alcohol thing.  I want to stop but I am finding it really hard.  I rarely have more than one.  I did yesterday because I was soooo flippin' stressed.  It calms my head.  I am going to try and stick to the one and try and drink just clear spirits which are low carb.  When I get home I will address the not drinking when life is a bit more simple.

Today I am grateful for

My lovely husband who drove us all the way to Caen and didn't get phased by my irritable and grumpy self.  He didn't judge me because I had a couple of drinks and still loves me despite my failings.

My scales, which show all my shortcomings but also shows me that I am doing ok.  I couldn't do this without them.

My lovely Mum and Dad who I am now going to spend some quality time with.  I miss them so much and am really looking forward to seeing them.