Hunger is a state of mind 86.4kgs

 Date  Tuesday 30th May 2023

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What will test me today?

Lizette and Bev coming for lunch.  Not going on about IF and keeping my eating reasonable

How would I usually respond?

Eat everything and seconds and drink too much

How could I respond that would make me feel pleasantly surprised with myself when I look back on it tonight?

Eat small portions of food.  One or no glasses of wine


HUNGER IS DEFINITELY A STATE OF MIND

Yesterday I was going to try and go for 42 hours fasted.  I did really well and was not really hungry.  I wanted desperately to eat but I didn't.  When Mike was cooking and eating his dinner I took the dog out for a walk and then when I came back and went and watched TV.  However everything had food on it and it fried my head.  I had no hunger feelings but I did have the head feeling of craving like a heroin addict craves heroin.  This wasn't a case of 'I want to eat'  this was 'If I don't eat something then I am going to lie on the floor moaning'.  I feel it in my head which kind of buzzes and I feel woozy and also strangely my arms kind of buzz too.  I wasn't hungry but I needed the comfort and relief of putting food in my mouth.  At 26 hours I caved and ate.   I think looking back if I had just taken a handful of grapes that would have been enough but I had the 4 slices of duck in the fridge and I ate them too.  I was fine after that.  I have no problem at all with what I ate.  It was all good and it satisfied me.  I didn't have a drink which was fantastic.

This morning I weigh 86.4 so all good.  However I know that if I do my usual eat everything today then tomorrow I am going to be back at 87.4.  So I have to chose.  I can and will eat some of everything and will have 2 meals because I need to eat dinner as I fully intend to try the ADF on Wednesday.

I absolutely have to have a plan to do that but I will reflect and plan tomorrow morning when I have today out of the way and I stand amongst the wreckage as I get on the scales in the morning.

If I can get a grip on the screaming craving I absolutely know I can get to my goal which is 85kgs at the moment and by when Becky and Ollie come in August and I absolutely believe that I could go way beyond that.


PM

What tested me today.

Trying to control my eating and drinking

What happened?  

I failed basically.  Ate too much and drank far too much.  I mostly drank in the evening way after they had left.  Secret drinking too 😞

How did I respond?

Hey Ho.... tomorrow is another day.

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