Alcohol, sugar and addiction

So today is 20th May and I am struggling with my thoughts.

I belong to lots of FB groups and also listen to as many Podcasts by Gin Stephens in a day as I can to keep  me motivated.  The message every time is 'Trust the Process' and I am trying.  I know it works as in the first month I did lose 11lbs.  My average was a pound a week, but since then I have put on a 1.3kgs after my birthday and I have lost about .5kgs of that since.  

I am pretty good at the fasting bit. I can fast for 18 hours relatively easily but after that it gets hard.  It's not just mental but physical effects too. I get a kind of buzz in my head. I feel really tired and very irritable. I desperately feel the need to eat. Not because I am hungry but because I need the comfort that eating brings me.  I can eat something then and those feelings do diminish but they don't go away.  They only go away when I have a drink of alcohol. Now is the reason they go because of the alcohol or because of the sugar in the alcohol?  I might try something different tonight and eat something sweet like some honey and yoghurt and see if it calms those feelings.  This is all very physical as well as mental and emotional.  I would never have classed myself as a sugar addict but maybe I have this wrong.  I would say I am an alcohol addict but this needs to be looked into.  

Another thought I had last night as I reflected on this is 'Am I a diabetic?' because a lot of the feelings and symptoms I am having are signs of diabetes. 

Peeing a lot is a symptom but I am drinking a lot to stop me feeling hungry, not because I am thirsty.    Tiredness is another and I am really tired unless I am doing something like walking or cycling but then when I stop doing those things I am bone tired.                                                                                    Headaches are another and after several weeks of not taking any paracetamol I am taking them nearly daily for the headaches.                                                                                                                      Feeling shaky and weak.  Yes I do feel like that when I get to the 18 hour mark.                              Maybe I was pre-diabetic before and now this is manifesting itself again?  I thought this WOE was supposed to stop all the diabetic stuff by controlling the insulin?  

Today I will fast till I have done 18 hours and then if I can will do more.  If after that I feel the buzz and tiredness etc then I will eat some yoghurt with some honey and see if that makes it go away.  If that can last me until dinner then all good.  I am going to try not to drink wine before dinner because I need to test my theory.

In the next few days I am going to also change what I eat to low carb. I am going to up the meat and try and go back to Keto.  I was eating far too much bread and potatoes and I am planning on having rice tonight.  Because I have changed my diet in the last few weeks I seem to have a lot of carb heavy food in the freezer.  Tonight we have a Biryani I got out of the freezer yesterday so I will have that and then I will make a plan for the next few days.

I am determined to 'Tweak it till it's easy' as they say, because really the WOE is easy.  I only have to think about eating once a day.  Going out will be another matter and something I need to think about when I get this bit sorted.

So my plan is to fast as long as I can today until the pressure gets too much.  Then I will eat something like yoghurt and honey.  I will try the hand to mouth trick to ease my craving to put something in my mouth.  I will listen to my podcasts and maybe ask the question in the group regarding diabetes.  I will eat the biryani tonight but try and have a smaller portion.

I need to reflect on portion control, alcohol, sugar,  secret eating, snacking and much, much more!  

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